Resolutions

Tomorrow's the last day of November. Another year gone by already. For once in my life, I can actually look back and say with confidence that I'm not standing where I was at the beginning of the year.

I find that new year resolutions don't work for me. Granted, a new beginning is a good time to make changes. But then, any given day's as good as the next. Besides, Man proposes, God disposes. You may not be here tomorrow, so you might as well make the best of now. And don't worry! If that won't change a thing, then why give yourself wrinkles and greys? Do what you actually can. PRAY. Then let go and let flow! (and keep the faith, of course. Keep pushing till you receive your answer).

Where was I? Resolutions. Right. I find new year resolutions work like new diets, new exercise regimes, trying out new hobbies, self-improvement trials, and all that. Motivation may hang around for the first week, month, or even day. Then that wanes, and it all goes down the hill.......{hmmmmm......}.
So forget that approach. What do you want to change? Improve?? Become??? Start on it today. Right now. Make a plan and follow through. Sure, you may digress, get derailed, or hit a wall. But nothing clicks just like that. No matter how far off you get, destination point is still on the horizon. Dust yourself up and keep pushing even, especially when you fell like just giving up. Eventually, you will find your self more "on' than "off" the program.
So I'm with the daily resolution wagon. Daily reminders really help. Plus each time I slag off, I'm reminded of where I should be, and I try to get back. So far, I'm on the following:

i) Be patient
ii) Be kind
ii) Never be rude, especially to my brother.
iv) Not to be deceitful, even in the slightest forms.
v) Smile
vi) Not to procrastinate
vii) Become time-concscious
viii)Consider others over myself

Weary

You get to a point when you find you are simply weary of a lot of things. Worn out by plans not quite working out (though you know its not because you're missing something). Weary of (seemingly) being on one spot. Tired of not getting things right. Wondering when it's all going to come together. Wondering which way to go, and how to go about "it", whatever "It" is.

I feel like I've been pursuing this one thing for so long, and that's even more in line with my trying to be prudent. My heart is simply not in it, I'm tired because it all seems so never-ending and tedious.

In the midst of it all, I know the Lord is my strength, and he will get me through this on top, just as he did today, he did yesterday, and will always do tomorrow.

I have not been as focused on my job as I should, and its beginning to tell. I've had slip-ups here and there, forgetfulness issues that have left me feeling so bad for my boss, and wondering how I'm not back on the totally-unemployed line. I almost wish I could just leave here and get another job where I could have a clean start, no mess ups or whooping bloopers hanging over my head. Right now, Big Boss is going to be checking up triple time on my work, and looking out for busts. Its simply my doing, but it still hurts. Why on earth cant we just learn from other people's mistakes??? we cant make them all on our own!