Time Off

Birthday is on the horizon... 2 weeks and counting. Also going down as the first day of my leave. Let's hear it for the breaks!!!!!


Since my last (two) update(s), I have:
a) Not been taken for the job for which I underwent an interview. Things happen, life goes on. It was just God's grace that I moved on the way I did, for all my hopes and plans in this one. Even I was amazed.
b) Have reconcluded that guys (and humans in general, of course) are just selfish asses.

Conclusion of b) came by due to the lack of communication on the part of the said nigga whom i was supposed to be all crushed up about (and boy, did that clear fast). See: Today I met the Boy I'm Gonna Marry. Thanking God for his mercies, I won't be marrying him anytime soon, if ever. The source of my greivance? There I was, minding my business, not asking for anyone's time or issues (tho, of course, a girl does enjoy attention). He came along, expressed his intentions, got me all interested and rose-tint eyed, then proceeded to leave town and just cut off. No emails. No calls. No sms'. Just a whole lot of nothing. I have gone from confused to vexed to amused (see? I should NEVER act on crushes! whenever will I learn to listen to me???), back to pissed. Right now, I should be someplace between moving-on and moved-on.


I know he's going to come back into town, just swing in with some crap of an excuse, and try to hit off where he left off. That would make me think so much less of him (yes, that is still possible at this point), and will piss me off some more. My main issue is this: Say what you mean, and mean what you say. If he just wanted a passing amusement, heck, I'm princess of Flirtdom. Hang out, chill, (mostly) anything goes. But he cooked up so much stuffing and all that just turned into hot air. My problem here is that I'm left with all the thoughts and dreams.

Friggin pisser!

Anyhoos, I've been gingering myself not to dare give in to the "plausible explanation(s)" that may or may not come. On the whole, I mostly hope he just forgets all about me and keeps the heck to himself. More like keeps on not remembering me and just leave me be. That should be pretty much an easy thing for him, since he's done it so well the past month.

Jai Ho!

I'm finally on the other side of 08.04.09. While it wasn't a particularly long day, it was a long wait, and now, the interview is done and over with. All I gotta do is pray I don't hear from them inside of two weeks. Amen to that!

Lag has been fun. Well, at least the yesterday was. Moving around jobless with nothing to do but make a couple of deliverys and chill is fun. At least in small doses. Its reminiscent of being done with school for a while and being on holiday. Yay!

Glad I'm heading back home today tho. Back to work again tomorrow.... Darn thing eating into ma holiday!
there's no place like home, there's no place like home, there's no place like home....

Monologue: Do Not Jump The Gun

Memo to self:
Until the condemned man has pegged, he is still not dead.


I think there may be more than just a little wisdom in keeping things to yourself till they are set in stone. Anything can change at any point in time, granted. Yet, is it really bad luck to declare ahead for what you want?


In a fit of wisdom, a sumbori once told me "You can't do the same thing over the same way and expect different results". As applicable to me, I think that would be "If it's going down the same road, it most likely will end up crashed into the wall at the end". Unless there's a detour of sorts ... .... So what I would be needing is a new variable in the mix (like I didn't know that already). And where variable is not forthcoming, you bring the mountain to it? entice it out of its hole? Or better yet, smoke it out! Choke that shege into action!!!


Lol.


Okay. But on the real, I need to stop over acting, and yet not sink into scheming.

Today I Met The Man I'm Gonna Marry.....

The girl is officially in Like.

He is soooooo cute. I could stare at his picture all day. I've just realised that I've so mostly shenked most of my "man friends" over the past month. lol!

I can't believe its just been a month. It feels longer. And I actually do want to spend all my time with him. Honestly, I strongly feel I should, at least while the feeling lasts, before he starts grating on my nerves with silly inconsequentials that shouldn't really matter.

*sigh*

Well, he's been gone a week, and I'm doing just fine. I know I won't realise how much I've missed him until we see. I'm actually contemplating pushing my leave till when next he gets off so I'm free. (Not like HE will be free for me sef. I should find a something to do with myself. A nice, leisurely, enjoyable something).